NEW WAVE
I am here and now; thinking and asking myself if I have made the right choices in life. Although it’s not late, but I’d still take the time to ask if I did the right thing? The answer could be may be or may be not. I am not shattered and nor my feelings are, but things have happened that has changed the courses in life. And I still wonder if those were the right moves I made for self. Nothing is ever wasted and everything is an experience that would be a bonus if I were to reflect on them at some point. That’s another way of keeping self positive and heading into a path that’s more meaningful in life. But I wonder if my mind and heart is aligned and agree with it. Or if I have been forcing my heart to believe and agree that this is the right way to move forward.
Then again I smile and hope for the better tomorrow even though my present is in absolute chaos. Life is all about choices and the way you decide to portrait, they say. I could be smiling and greeting; I could be saying I am doing great when asked: how you doing? But then again I wonder, am I?
Undoubtedly, there are million reasons to smile but could I really smile when I have no control over one thing you value the most in life? What is happiness? It’s a feeling I might say. But is there any way to measure them? One thing, one situation, one time is enough to turn thing upside down and I’d say do not be discouraged with one thing and look at the bright side. It just doesn’t fit right. My mind might argue you can never control a thing, so, may be try controlling your feelings. Well, that is an adjustment that I have learnt to make with life. But do I want continue that?
Mind is free and supposed to wander, venture for new things… but is it really?
Constantly looking for an answer, checking in people, and I wonder if I ever lend my ears when the suggestions were made. I feel and I want to follow.
Standing on a shore watching the waves and as I continue to stand I feel the sand sweeping away from beneath. Am I hoping for the waves to take me in? Or am I waiting for the right wave to surf in. On the journey to self discovery, again it so much about looking inward and asking self to move forward and to make the right choices from here on when the Universe is still by your side.
And I still wonder if this is the right thing to do…
Manifesting the trust within and learning to trust my intuition… It is time and I shall let go…