Chasing a dream…I thought I was chasing my dream. Always dreamt of a life doing things that I wanted and living it in a way I wanted to. Now that m 25, I had to take a pause and reflect back at the time where all of this had started. The time when I felt a good degree is what I needed to have and with everything I had, I came looking for something that was missing from my life. Struggling, crying, laughing, learning, living, I fulfilled it.
The aim then shifted to a Job, a ‘career’, an ambition in life and repeating the phase of struggling, crying, etc doing everything I can to fulfill it, to make it happen just the way I want.
Well, I did it by taking a job that paid me well enough to make a living and good savings. I was serious about my job for 2 long years. I did everything I could to be accepted, to be acknowledged, to be praised like every other employee. I was never happy, always felt that people were horrible and treated me badly cause of the way I was and never understood my perspective Bla blah. Anything worst that one could think of being a fresher in a new place. But slowly everything started to change, the reason could be the change I made within and the power it gave me to influence others to follow. I am not an expert but I do realize now that if you see something is not right, then fix it. Be the change you want to see in others rather than asking others to change for you. Slowly everything started to fall on to the right place, feeling of well-deserved happiness along with the appraisals, rewards, and promotion found it’s way to me.
Everything was perfect but then again I wanted something different. Regardless of how I’ve been treated over the time, hunting for the new ambition begins. Sometimes I feel I have a weird hate relationship with being comfy in life. Always aiming higher than I could possibly reach. At the same time, I feel this is what I want, a never ending struggle and hardships in life. If things were to fall easily I wouldn’t enjoy to live and love my life the way I do now.
The phase of life, where I am ready to face any challenges and move forward to achieve everything I’ve dreamt of. On the other side, keeping all the aims and ambitions aside, I want to pause this time of my life and spend all my savings to travel around the places, exploring all the corners of the cities that I have never heard of or seen in my life. Doing everything that I need to just to experience things in life.
A part of which I have already started by taking 20 days off to ‘Europe Trip’. I don’t regret doing it although I crunched up most of my savings. 🙁 It was well-deserved for the money I earned so far and worth every single penny. 🙂 If you don’t travel you lose so much, you miss experiencing the actual life. Go out, explore and fill in the gap with what you been missing so far. Expand your knowledge on different attitudes, behavior, and perspectives. Be open to new ideas and share your stories with the world. People might not be interested to hear them but treasure it cause that would be yours to cherish in life, to share with your loved ones.Be happy and live the life you want to be in…Peace