Am I self-motivated? if anyone asks – I doubt that. I find peace in emptiness. Doing nothing, thinking nothing when I feel low. People around me often misunderstand me for slacking off and living a life without a purpose. I guess it is their way of showing concerns for me and I appreciate that. I am glad that people care about me and my life. Respect.
I have been running constantly in a direction with different milestones set by myself. In this never-ending race of life, I am still running regardless of how I feel. If I decide to pause and reflect on the journey I have made it is not living life without a purpose. I have the ambition of where and how I wanted to be but I never projected the endpoint or fixated my dreams on anything. I could say I never had a long-term plan for life, therefore, the destination never remained the same and it continued to change as I moved forward. I am still trying to figure out my niche. Is it late? Do I need to continue living a socially approved life of getting universities degrees, job, career? It’s not like I want to run away from all the responsibilities but is there is a timeline that I must follow? Should I be worried about my career now since I have achieved all the educational degrees? I am dreamy and optimistic. I strongly defy all the rules that the society has laid upon.
If things are not working out for you, do not try harder. Many would disagree because we are told to try harder to chase our dreams. But when does this end? Does it ever end? For me, it is okay to let go once not because I like to give up but because I believe there is a good reason behind everything. I have started to listen to my gut feeling. I listen and follow my intuition. Listen to your inner self and never demoralize yourself in any way. You will always choose a right path for yourself, therefore, manifest the trust within.
Every individual is unique in their own way, trying to impose others ways of living and lifestyle would only mean pushing yourself to the one-way road of jealousy and darkness. Live, love and smile from your heart, feed your soul with positive energy. If you look for criticism, there will be thousands instead learn to encourage self for every small achievement you make.
I have no control over others judgement and opinions but I do have control over my emotions and feelings so, I smile even during the dark times. There could be few reasons to curse at the situations but I also have a million reasons to smile and I see opportunities flowing my way I just need to continue moving forward. I have lost multiple times but it’s okay, this is a part of life. I will come back to read this blog only to take a few deeper breathe and calm myself down and let go of all the negativity. Everything will be okay, just learn to let go. This too shall pass.