Every passing day is a new experience, learning something, teaching something… not that I know everything to pass onto another but at least I have now reached a point where I can have my own opinions…
Better late than never, no more worrying about “what others will think” or “how others think I should be”. Its just me, my real thoughts about the things that is happening around me. No more being nice to those who don’t deserve. Call me rude, I am happy but honest comments does help person to be better. I have realised now, thankfully. Actually, got the wrong lesson from parents to be quiet and submissive, ah ah.. we need to fight. Fight for the right thing and the right cause.
A year in Ireland, nothing comes easy… So does the life in Europe. With the growing numbers in my age need to admit the fact that I am learning so much. Specially, during the moment when I actually sat down to give lessons to a naive youngster.. got a bit of reality check there lol.. the reactions reminded me of myself back then.. nothing to care or worried about, never liked being told or lectured. This is life, what I saw back then was normal to me and now its different.. Differentiating the lines between black and white.
Dreaming those fancy life that we see living in some corner of the world. We would imagine that life would be any different in some other corner of the world. Always would chase that dream. But ever wondered, how is it like to create that world near you than wondering around the world and breaking down, cause all we see is the harsh reality. The world of your dreams barely exist. The only thing you wanted to be was happy, and the next moment you see is struggling and trying to understand why were you there in the first place. Ah! i am loosing my topic getting in between dreams, expectations and the reality.
Nobody realises the worth of their happiness until they come out of their comfort zone, and work hard for the little moments to cheer themselves up. A smile mixed with shame and pride, a sense of achievement with lack of feelings.. nothing was less when you were watching your dreams.. and now that you are chasing it, you have nothing but an empty road.. follow it until you feel you have got something that you were looking for or re-think the space that made you walk.. It’s kind of weird how I am trying to explain things up.. I am there, somewhere very close to what I am trying say.. Just dig deep within, may be you will find the answer.