In a constant doubt, fear and curiosity if this is the right thing. If I am in the right direction taking the right path. Nothing is clear and everything is an absolute. Unable to see any form to what I am looking for.
Still walking, repeating these questions to self if this is what I should be doing and this is the path that I am supposed to be walking. Nothing is clear.
Every once in a while strange thoughts crosses my mind, without any emotion attached to anything I could let go. Heartless, at times I feel. I wouldn’t feel any if I was one. Easy to hold onto when seen something. Difficult to let go once you have it. Seeks for more regardless of the situations.
Am I happy? Isn’t this another feeling? Should I not be bothered? Do I really feel or I am only a sensitive soul pretending to be all strong and willing.
Fight back I would say to myself but does the words match my actions? Sadness, fear and despair is all I see. In search of light and the path.
To that one soul that we all bow down to, help me cross this over and I will forever be grateful. Give me the courage to walk on straight, head held up high and fight my battles within. Help me fight my own weak emotions and make me a strong and better person I dream of.
Signing off from my hopeless imagination…